Time Flies June 22, 2008

I am nearing the end of my third (and final) pregnancy. We scheduled the C-section for July 22. I am so anxious about so many things. One of them is leaving my kids for several days. Last time it was only my daughter and she understood so much more than my son seems to comprehend. My daughter has always been a little better at me leaving her for periods of time than my son. I am sure that is because I worked for the first year and half of her life. With my son I only worked a small part time job for about a year and he was sleeping during my work hours. I know, I know, a few minutes after I leave he is fine. Just that I you know as a mother that no one knows your kids better than you do. No one knows just the way they like, oh say their pancakes made or how you have a nightly tradition of kissing both their hands before saying “Goodnight, I love you, don’t let the bed bugs bite.” No one knows Ellie the well loved stuffed elephant, your daughter sleeps with every night, makes sure only good dreams get through. Yes, it’s just for a short four of five days but still you sort of feel like you are abandoning them. I know they will be well cared for though by their father and my mother.

I am also anxious about the c-section itself. Last time I lost my ability to breathe or talk and that was pretty scary. I don’t panic easy but I did at that time and they knocked me out. I really would like to be aware this time to see our last child born-so here’s crossing my fingers on that. Of course, I have the usually anxiety about what if something happens to our baby. What if something is wrong…my first daughter spent nine long days in the NICU but is healthy as a horse today (THANK GOD!) I am writing all this so y’all can say after everything turns out just fine how silly I was to be so anxious-enough about the negative.

We have another ultrasound scheduled for July 3rd so I may have some new pics of the newest little princess after that. I really must get serious about getting ready-I really am not prepared at all. I gave away all of the adorable baby clothes I had from my daughter and I have to dig out the baby stuff I have left as well as make room in my room for her. There is some shopping to do as I gave away some important things after my son was born. So, that’s where my head is now.

By the way, Relay went well although a little too hot for me this year. Even though I was horribly lazy about collecting donations and everything else this year we manged to collect almost $1500. For a little family team I thing that wasn’t bad and I always think who knows maybe that $1500 will be the bit of extra $ needed for the research that blows the horrible Cancer Monster out of the water. Maybe it will be the bit of extra $ to help some cancer patients get transportation to their appointments that normally wouldn’t have because there wasn’t enough funding. You never know-whatever the $ is used for I feel assured it will be put to excellent use. Pictures will follow I am a little slow at getting the pics up these days. Thank you to anyone (again & again) who made donations and or participated.

Cancer June 12, 2008

One more plea for donations to my team Pop-pop’s Peeps for the Relay For Life (I made my first one back in January) American Cancer Society fundraiser this Friday and Satuday. Here’s our link: http://main.acsevents.org/goto/poppopspeeps . It’s hard to ask people to put out money and get nothing in return. The thing I have learned about cancer, after having added a couple names earlier this year and then 3 more names recently to our inspiration list (names are listed at our donation site) is that cancer is frighteningly random. Every time I turn around I hear it has struck another person I know directly. You could be next-I could be next. So I ask for donations, in any increment because every little dollar counts. I ask for you, for me, for everyone. I am not just asking beacause I am honoring people who have passed on because of cancer or for current cancer patients but for future patients too (really in hopes of avoiding more future patients.) We never know who will be struck next. I also ask you keep all cancer patients and their families in your thoughts and prayers. Thank you for even considering the cause and make sure you get your mammograms and colonoscopies and check ups etc etc. All that unpleasant stuff can mean such a big difference in fighting cancer. 

One of my Favorites June 1, 2008

An excerpt from one of my favorites,Iwas reminded of today:

Intimations of Immortality from Recollections of Early Childhood

Then sing, ye birds, sing, sing a joyous song!
And let the young lambs bound
As to the tabor’s sound!	175
We in thought will join your throng,
Ye that pipe and ye that play,
Ye that through your hearts to-day
Feel the gladness of the May!
What though the radiance which was once so bright	180
Be now for ever taken from my sight,
Though nothing can bring back the hour
Of splendour in the grass, of glory in the flower;
We will grieve not, rather find
Strength in what remains behind;	185
In the primal sympathy
Which having been must ever be;
In the soothing thoughts that spring
Out of human suffering;
In the faith that looks through death,	190
In years that bring the philosophic mind.

 ~ William Wordsworth